** a Cup of Kiss, allright!

Read. Read. Read
Meet. Meet. Meet
You talk too much!
I hate it!

Show off all day long
I hate it!

You're both the match couple
Make me like an idiot!

Having sex all day
Right on my back
and make a fool of everyone
I knew it so well

a part of me must die
When i didn't let go off you
almost hardly hear you say
Cause things won't be same again

*You'll lose what you have won

Jan 20th

✽ Almost Valentine ✽

Do you know what is Valentine? Sounds like years ago. Before i grow up as woman ;) This is two days before Val

Bad news or good one? Today, i've been kicked out by a group in bb just becauce inactivity :( So i kick out the moderator from my list. Is that you called a friend!

Today, i've been invited by my office community group. Actually, I hate being part of this, being this member just because my two big boss are in. Alright i can't write anything easily because they're always watch over me.

Then i have to be someone else not me. To be good? to be excited? to be smart? To be an employee with no "NE" Need Expectation. Am I freak of my boss? I think so! I don't even invite / approve them to my facebook n twitter account. No!

** And i pray...

Cerita tentang malam. Diantara kejujuran yang terpaksa satu jam. Did it only an hour? I'm not sure! Sir, thank you 4 give me time. God, thank 4 bring back smile. Need expectation. What kind a word is that? Let me explain, i am not a good employee so that no need any incentive for this month!

God sake! I have my own plan. I have my life and life is a matter of choice! Did you realize that every decision is lying a reason. Pekerjaan ini membuatku gila. 8 years. Madam, you give out another shit words to your meeting. And that's all about me, didn't you! God would shut your mouth up slowly by the time he called me to his room. I've explain everything.

Just don't be a perfect! I, you and they are the perfect between the truth and falsehood.

Jan 27-28th, 2011

is this the price??

we've been in a hard conversation

is this the price i've waited for?
but thanx God i'm alive

i knew it since very first time
that justice would come arround me
i didn't expect to much to our conversation tonight
but the most important thing of all
i have tell him the reason!
i have share all the suck thing in my mind!

is she such a perfect leader?
is she such a good woman?
God knows more than we all know!

please Sir, say something that make me believe that i only lie to her :)

long weekend

Terbukti..
Kalau libur panjang
Weekend, cuti
justru wake up nya always early morning
Sptnya ada banyak hal tertunda yg hrs diselesaikan
Banyak hal yg tak terjamah akibat rutinitas kerja
Which is need accomplish

So, is that any correlation
between stress hormone & spirit to wake up?

I'm sure there is :)

i saw

Still wondering.. Here and there
Did U sent me just to see all those things?
All the f**k I won't see at all

God I was there
The day when they're kissing passionately

I was there
When they're f**king all nite

Did I've made a mistake
So I have to see and feel that deeply grieve

Am I grieve!
Just sometimes when the memory comes 2my mind

They never know who I am
They never know that I can do many things

No need to lie, no need to excuse
Everybody have lived like that
And the feeling would gone by right away
And the grieve would also come to you're both precisely
You're just gonna cry hard
And remind that u have left a thing

When everything almost done!
Right there!

If I Never See You Again

The morning light comes stealing. To start a new day. Out there the world is waiting. To take us far away. And it’s time to make the final break. But the memory will linger forever..

If I never see you again. And think of me now and then. Though it hurts so sweetly. They say all good things come to an end. You’ve changed my life completely. I’m touched by your love. Even if I never see you again..

The night is so unforgiving, yeah.. And I’m on my own. I realise what I’m missing. And now that you’ve gone. So I say a prayer. Are you out there. Are you feeling what I’m feeling now, yeah..

If I never see you again, And think of me now and then. Though it hurts so deeply.
They say all good things come to an end. You’ve changed my life completely. I’m touched by your love. Even if I never see you. If I never see you again

And if I never see you again. No one can tell you how the story ends. Where the road will lead. When love begins, yeah

You’ve changed my life completely. I’m touched by your love. Even if I never see you. If I never see you. Even if I never see you again. And If I never see you. Yeah, yeah, yeah, yeah, yeah...

(Lyrics by : Wet Wet Wet)

Sunyi

Jalan itu semakin sunyi. Keraguan kian menyeruak. Lentera itu mendadak mati. Di ujung jalan dimana hendak ia tuju. Langkahnya terhenti, rasanya tak sanggup ia melihat dlm gelap. Tapi, sepertinya pernah ia ingat disana ada persimpangan dg cahaya kecil dr kunang2. Namun semakin ia ingat, semakin ia melupa. Karena selama ini sayup suara binatang malam yg lantang menuntun kakinya. Bahwa disana masih ada kehidupan.

Jalan itu masih sunyi, langkah itu kian tertegun bersama niat yg terkubur. Dalam gumam, ia tak lagi sanggup melangkah. Tanpa arah. Tanpa lentera. Hati yg kelu dg dindingnya yg nyaris roboh. Berat rasanya..

yang hilang

aku masih menghitung
detik malam yg mengantar kepergianmu
diantara meja sekawan
yg memancar tawa

semua mengangkat gelas
memecah hening dari atas meja

aku masih menghitung
detik malam yg mengantar kepergianmu

diantara keraguan yg tertahan
bersama janji yg menguap

langkah ini nyaris tak bergerak

dan engkau masih meratap

aku kembali membuang janji
bersama pagi yg pilu
janji utk mengantarmu pergi

namun aku tak pernah ada

masih tertahan disini
bersama deretan percakapan palsu
yg menorehkan kabar semu

lambaian itu tak mungkin terlihat olehmu
hanya panggilan2 tak terjawab
memenuhi kotak panggilan

waktu berjalan begitu cepat
dan semuanya hampir tak berubah

aku masih tertahan disni
bersama deretan percakapan palsu
yg menoreh kabar semu

hanya sesekali aku basuh
satu per satu bulir
dr kata yg tak sempat terucap


semoga maaf itu masih tersisa

*still love u [굼말라 앛치 구숨아]*

Dear God..

I'm scared to read that poem again, the poem I wrote 4 him at hundred something.

"You make a good one, dear. Please write 4me another, ill se u soon. Beloved." He told me at the morning. Maybe the last morning.

I hope it would be the last memory I have too. I swear I won't make any poem again! Ever!

The days gone by slowly damn and I still miss the past. I'm weary but I prepare to follow down the road..

Not to find the crackin sometin or the smilling face with his flattering old brand new..

But just to wander across the light. Cause still I have the feeling near, how a stranger come to mine and take my breathe.. almost away!!