pengampunan

nyanyian itu masih terdengar sunyi
seruan itu menyiram kering
Ah, dahaga kembali melanda
jika sujud hanya sebatas gerak
pengampunan kalbu
jauh tak tersentuh

denyut ini merajam pilu
adakah tuhan menampak
di lorong2 gelap
tak hendak mencabik
jiwa yang gamang

hanya...
tangis meringis memecah hening
berserapah atas penyesalan

this ramadhan

sesampai di satu dekade
kucium sajadah Ramadhan
dulu yg pertama
tuhanku jauh mengetuk rindu
di pelupuk mata
dalam inci kehangatan

sesampai di satu dekade
kusebut namamu lagi
di sepanjang malam
hingga fajar menyembul
diantara bait nyanyianMu
aku meradang haru

aku yg pernah melupa
dan terlupa
mengais namaMu diantara malam
di satu dekade silam
menapak kebimbangan
tanpa kawan

hanya aku tengadah
engkau tak pernah lupa
krn helai fajarmu
selalu membisik lembut
merengkuh diantara jalan terangmu

marhaban yaa ramadhan....

** u (always) see what i cann't see
and i... want 2still holdin' on ur rope

is this what u need?

its a cry to forgive
its a love to deny
in an innocent mind
that unintended

it is only tears
that affraid 2 fall down
it is too late to apologize?

when everybody is watching me
when everybody is watching u
(it feels)

the heart beat comes and go
just a love passing by
and i've become what i can't be

is it still worthwhile
when i stand down staring at the moon

dear, ill be ur perfect
but only in dream

just take a break

tubuh tanpa rasa itu tersisa
menari di atas imajinasi
yg tak tersentuh
letih berserak tulang

waktu hanya menampak hampa
bersama pilar kekecewaan

satu per satu asa
jauh tersingkap
tak lagi menyelimuti

things really go wrong
as they sometimes will
all u need to do is rest...

sebuah kata di ruang rindu

Air matanya menetes perlahan. Di kerut wajah tuanya. Garis uban yang kian jelas, dan belaian halus di tiap helai rambut ini. Menyela tatapan lembutnya.
Kemana saja kau selama ini nak! Ibu merindukanmu! Betapa ibu hampir lupa garis wajahmu…

Kembali ibu mengulang cerita, jika aku gadis kecil yg tumbuh terlupakan. Tiba-tiba menjadi dewasa dan tak lagi berbagi cerita.
Ibu menangis memelukku. Ibu mengaku sangat merinduku dan berkata tak ingin jauh dariku. Padahal aku tak pulang ke rumah cuma beberapa bulan karena harus berada di luar kota.

Kembali ibu mengulang cerita, jika aku gadis kecil yang tak pernah meminta, selalu terlewatkan diantara kepentingan seorang kakak dan seorang adik. Namun tiba-tiba menjadi dewasa.

Aku masih terlelap ketika ibu beraktivitas. Ibu sudah terlelap ketika aku pulang kerja. Kita jadi jarang bercakap. Namun cinta itu selalu ada meski sulit mengungkapkannya.

I love you more than words mom! I always try 2be the best 4u.
Baginya, aku cuma gadis yg suka ngotot dg kemauannya sendiri. Gadis kecil yg nekad mengejar apapun keinginan dan menggasak apapun yg di hadapan jika dirasa menghalangi tujuan. Ada lagi bu? Yg buruk-buruk kan selalu ada padaku, timpalku meledek.

Ibu tidak sedang meracau. Ibu berbisik jika ia sering mengelus dada atas ulahku. Ibu selalu takut jika aku sudah punya kemauan. Risiko apapun akan diterjang. Kemauanku yg kerap berseberangan, tak jarang bikin ibu sering mengomel dan berkata dg nada tinggi. Menghalau keinginanku dg segala cara.

When i was a kid about 4-5 years old i tried to run away from home when i angry and wish i could stay at whoever little star (an artist) house. I wish my soul trap into someone else's body which is little star body.

Dear mom, this many years i spent my time… i’ve got nothing to give out to you. This is only a little piece of love and maybe means nothing. Sepenggal belum sanggup kuberikan meski sepanjang kasih telah kau beri….

Hate me mom… hate me 4 all the things I didn’t do 4u...

stronger than u

stop ur mouth
stop ur heart
i tell u go
and not 2 come (here)

i forgive
i pretend
not to smile
cause i am stronger than u

--carpark north--

two men

when the two men asked her to get married
…frightened left behind, like she said to me
so what does a woman need from an intended husband?
they have a love... and passionate
have much money (maybe)… and full of life person…
is that all she need?

sometimes she tired of loving
though she wants to get married
(only) to make her life completely
cause she almost forget what love is

dear…
to find what u called love passion n money
maybe such an easy thing
but to find the one who can leading u’r life
and u’r afterlife
is the real intended husband all woman need
…think that its hardly to find

(mencari pria dg segenap cinta nafsu materi
mungkin gampang. namun sosok yg mampu membimbing
dunia akhirat adalah sosok yang tak perlu diragukan lagi)

so dear… which one have its requirement?

semu

.......cinta yang terlahir dari suasana
ibarat air yang berhenti mengalir....

if she just a sad song ...

she wants to hold you, but not belonging
she wants to shake u'r hand, not to reach
she wants to remind you that u're not alone
but won't beside you
she wants to give her time, not her life
maybe there's just a fond word, not in love space

she has put her love on a glass elsewhere
... where some blind can fine

love is only a deeper moving care
it's a change that makes stronger and weaken

she won't touch touch again
she won't makes a scar when it's gone
she believes what her meant to be

dear if she's so wrong
how can u listen all night long
but if u thing that she's wrong
this never meant nothing to you

hate her in some other time...
so you can see what good for you (and her)

jika kerlip bintang hanya di sini

di satu waktu aku tersenyum
diantara kerlip yg jatuh di pelupuk
elok
namun tak tersentuh
gemerincing
namun tak teraih

cinta mengetuk
terselip dalam imaji lugu
bertengger
di atas menara gading
indah dalam waktunya

di satu masa
datang menoreh kehangatan

diantara kejujuran
menutup diri pd pasang mata pencibir
datang hendak menyingkap dusta

namun cinta membelai ukiran senyum
indah hanya dalam waktunya...